zhihui

2012-02-13T12:35:00.002+08:00

I GIVE UP.
after so long, i really did. there is no second option but the only option you give me.
I am there to your convenience, I am there for you to sacrifice.
I sacrifice others for you, but you sacrifice me for others. This is all I get in return after so long.
Without you, my life seem like nothing, bland but without me, your life is still full of colour and joy.
Nothing much i can worry about you. I need to worry about myself first cause if i don't, nobody will even care.
This is people, this is life. I learnt so much so much of a lesson, take me almost 2 years.
Back to before, no one can be trusted. I only got myself.
Thanks so much and farewell. 舍不得, 也要舍得.

PS: 现实, 自私, 残酷

2012-02-01T22:31:00.003+08:00

LIfe is just as bad as always. I just want to be cherish but it is soooo sooo hard. God isn't giving me a good life at all.
All i can is envious ppl. Today is the worse day ever. 1st time i failed a poly paper.
The essay that i wrote with prepared. My english can never be better. I can never be better.
Everyday isn't a good day. Nothing im regreting, im just feeling sadd. I have given all i have got, but i deserved nothing in return, only tears perhaps. Ohwell, project on hand. not just one but alot alot of them.
So many things are happening next week. I hope it will soon be over. I learnt to talk lesser and work faster. It is that my words are just so useless. even my heart sank, projects still need to be completed. I guess im some girl that does not deserve much happiness. A FAILED GIRL.

2012-01-01T02:15:00.003+08:00

2012<3

HAPPY NEW YEAR! is a brand new year and may this year be a great year ever.

PS: 新的一年，新的开始

2011-12-14T22:51:00.006+08:00

New Year's Eve<3

NO WORK DAY! freaking happy:D I finally get to rest and play games. my leg is also free from standing 8hr long! Today went to sch for HOS meeting. Been taught how to be a referee or umpire for the HOS matches coming up. Kinda worried actually cause I never really understand clearly. This instructor they get is kinda joke. Guess he should be p or vp of some other club bah. Ended kinda fast but with a lot of fun and laughter during his teaching session:D

Spend some time in clubroom but it is so boring cause nothing to do:X

Next is meet up with bi! yawns, tired though. went to catch new year's eve at cck. pretty nice actually. sweet and nice. cck theater feel weird maybe it is too wide and big bah. With bi, I eat more eh. growing fatter but more munmun coming my way:D

ohya, yesterday while I am working alone and I met this girl which is the promoter for a brand close to mine. She talked to me 1st and we actually have lunch today! I thought I be alone but lucky I found common people that I can talk to. Time actually past faster while I work and talk to her:D There also this interesting incident that there is some problem with 1 of my sample in the end we went to approach a guy to get him to open it! Actually we wanna approach another guy but he went mia when we try to find him:XX tsktsk! he gt a nick instead: where is him when we need him! JOKE ttm!

PS: 开心的时间总是过的比较快

2011-12-12T22:37:00.004+08:00

START OF WORK

1st day of WORK. Requested by the boss, I need to wake up early in the morning to go taka kfc for meeting before I start work at vivo at 12pm. 1st day of work but I got a col working together to guide me for today only. After today we will alternate to work. Rin came after her exam and even waited for me till i end work at 8pm to accompany me to take the train ride home:D THANKS:D Sales isn't good today and there is so much work done. Learned alot of things today. My leg almost break! Tired max. Im tired already. I guess i prefer office work, promoter will never be my type of work again!

PS: 工作的时间似乎过的比平时慢

2011-12-11T23:18:00.002+08:00

MAPLE!

Saturday: Eric show me an event at 12am and I forget it is actually after 12am, keep on thinking that today is 11/12. Ended up thinking that the maple event is actually today. Meet bi late because of this but in the end realized that I made a mistake. Went vivo, ended shopping at uniqlo. There is offer and stuff. I got my working polo-t there, just nice. The price are great too. Wanna kim gray for dinner but there is a long queue and bi refused to wait. He say next time, awwwww! I wan try kim gray! Mostly long queue cause it is dinner time, too bad. Settle with ajisen and bought 2 can of hello panda biscuit home! :D

Sunday: Went bi house to wait for my maple box! Spent almost whole day there just to use my lappy. Today bi finally drive me using his dad car but he refused to drive me home cause he is not familiar with the way to my house. Only get me to SP. Lonely road home for me D: Next time he shall drive me home! I DUN CARE:P

2011-12-09T23:14:00.006+08:00

Already Famous!

Hey! Im back. Miss me? Exam finally come to an end, half a semester is gone. Soon, it will be year3. Awww. Poly life is actually awesome except the exam part D: Now is time to catch up with some sleep that I missed during exam period:X Totally is a torture. Cannot image to study till 3am and wake up at 7 or 8am to study again! Well, it is over! Time to celebrate and play:D Back to game time:D Result will come later D: Hope for the best! Movie time straight after exam with bi. It had been 5days since I meet him! Finally time to enjoy. Already famous is so cutee:D

PS: IT IS END OF EXAM!

2011-12-02T23:11:00.006+08:00

STUDYING IN PROGRESS D:

Exam study week and exam week is the most craziest week.

been MIA for 2 days from my blog already, well quite busy studying. But seriously, I only really started the revision today. Got to chiong already. It is only 3 more days. eh, is only 2 more days:X I got my plan already. Be prepare to chiong till next Thursday from today onward. Therefore will be MIA for a few more days. After which the whole holiday is mine already. Today last day of school already! only 2hr of lesson<3 after which went clementi for breakfast, including KOI! I am always so absent-minded D: that I keep on forgetting to print some of the revision paper. Thanks to MH, I got them printed! Plus the econs answer too:D

WAD please, work out for me on Monday paper. Everything shall go smooth smooth. I hope exam is just like quiz and revision test. Cause Im going to conquer that totally, so don't give me any stunt during exam! HOPEFULLY!

PS: 人生就是不停的戰鬥

2011-11-29T22:29:00.002+08:00

Doubts :<

Do you believe true love exist? i don't know. I feeling kinda weird for few days:C ohwell. We do have so much in different; the way we think, the way we do thing. I just hope we can go on well. Walk on and we will know:D

Today is an awesome day, started off with MOB. I still think Lawrence don't look like his age. Well, he is a successful man. I want to be one too. I shall aspire to be like him. Like him should be enough. Work hard toward that bah. Life is ours to decide. He shared quite some stuff with us. Like a madd only, i think he mention he gt 4 or 6 car that time. Like omqq. The rest is just like normal school day:X

ended and home sweet home.

PS: HAIIS.

Back Together

2011-11-28T17:03:00.003+08:00

BACK TOGETHER:D

We back together already. Will never be the same as before already. Slowly bah, more feel will come back the. I hope so. WAD is still so cui-ed:/ I can't even do quiz 8. Revision 1 and 2 is worse. Ohgosh, I haben start my revision. Getting real close to exam le. Econs lecture is still as bad:X I think most of the time, I wasn't listening to the lecturer. He is freaking fast for don't what!! zzz.

Meet up with bi, quite a nice meetup. cause I finally had my shilin (jipa & tian bu la). Kinda full eh, but i still eat dinner. MUHAHA. Im growing fat:/ Anyway, bi sign-ed on army. It is going to get more & more busy for him. I hope he can handle everything but he for sure can't balance out everything.

I started playing sims3, it is nice. oh, im really like a retard cause I got problem with it. There is too much to understand. HAHA! explore till I sianz to explore. Well, I shall wait for M to show me. MUHAHA!

PS: A once broken heart can never be fully heal.

Taken For Granted

2011-11-27T21:42:00.013+08:00

Taken For Granted D:

I make my last move. We had ding tai fung for lunch. Order too much and almost cannot finish eating it. We didn't speak much for the whole lunch. found one place to talk at last, but I dunno what to say. HAIIS. After much silent, I spoke; if you seriously want an end today is our last meet up. In the end, he changed his mind. So fast, that I feel so not tashi, so fast that the sadness in me can't go off. somehow I am still so sadd. So many people keep on walking past then i decide to leave there. He is free to go already but he stay and accompany me. so i went for the arcade, I going for the jubeat. guess that will cure some sadness within me. But they moved the jubeat outside! Argh, with my skill I am so ps to play. In the end, played a game of car racing but it ended so quickly that it is not fun at all D: Feeling still as sadd and not well, I left him for vivo to find rin. We actually talk it out or maybe should say I talk him out through sms. We are going on. I hope you are serious. I hope it will turned out well. I hope I am not going to be taken for granted again. I feel there is regret, there is time I should give way that I didn't. that is why I can't let go but if we continue how we are last time, I will eventually feel tired and really give up. There are way better guys out there, I just hope you treat me better.

Lastly, meet rin yesterday to go for the swing. haha. happyhappy. swing till want to vomit :D LOL. swing off the unhappiness and bad memories. Have a great chat too. she share-d with me about what her friend say; why we suddenly forget what we are supposed to do is because God just cancelled our action so we can't remember. We are actually controlled by God. This is so interesting. I agreed to that. So logical. HAHA. We are like some chess for the God, he control how we are. or maybe like what rin say; we like some sims character for God. woah D: If this is so, I hope God will give me a good life. where I have no sadness and pain. I need not deal with some rs problem. I find the destined one, that will treat me real well x.x

How about you? What do you think?

PS: 地球不会因为少了谁，而停止转动

就像人的心不会因为少了谁，而停止跳动

HEARTBROKEN

2011-11-26T16:38:00.017+08:00

HEARTBROKEN D:

5th day, I still cannot let go. I can't. ARGHHH! why! Please disappear from my mind. Please! Like what JX say, LIKE THIS HOW TO STUDY MST. Now I agreee with her. Today never manage to study, my textbooks are all un-touched yet. Why you so henxin! I HATE IT. Without me, your life will not have much change. You got so much friends to go out with. I believe now you outside already, With your friends. I guess Im just an extra in your life, with or without me never matters before. Who are you with? I wonder. ARGH, I really going crazy already. Although you are not handsome, selfish at times but I really scare you left me for other girls. This time you seriously so henxin. 1st time you like this. everytime i say wanna break, you persuade me. Now i trying to persuade but you so henxin. you really never think for me before. All you want is for yourself only?

I gonna have my last move tmr, one last one. Based on these few days, I think nothing gonna change, but I hope for this one last time. MAY WE DON'T END HERE. If we do, then I got to tell myself that I had tried my best already. Let the regret past and do better for the next guy, the last guy.

PS: 人躺久了总是会睡着，而人爱久了，却不一定就是你的

11.11

2011-11-25T22:24:00.021+08:00

11.11 <33

4th day already. Seriously thankyou for making me cry when im on contacts.

thankyou a million D: Why cannot i let go. why i still wanna text him. i seriously wanna say smth to get him back. everytime we coming to end, my mind still feel that we have so many thing that we haven do. I cannot believe he's the one that once love me. Who promise to be by me. The one that we discuss our future. The one that I thought will be my only one. The one and only for me. Im utterly disappointed. I felt as though we never been tgt before. The 1yr5mth can just disappear in his heart. Why can't I be like him. How can he change so fast. Few days can waiver off the 1yr5mth. I tried my best to control already. but always lose control of myself. I hope the last day we going to have will be the best. I hope I wont cry then.

MOB is bored and I wasn't listening to his lesson. I was emo-ing away.

I guess Lawrence (MOB cher) knew, I wasn't right. He even ask me; am i okays, seems to be so quiet. im touched by his concern, thankyou. School ended freak-ing early and it is what im waiting forward to. cus after sch I having some date with a few classmates. at least can put you down for that bit of time. We ate at mahattan fish market, then to bookfest(spend real sometime thr with alotalot of books<3). spend quite some money on photomarker, books:D Lastly went for the macdonald 1 for 1 nuggets. AWESOME EH!

This few days, keep happen to see 11.11 on my phone, almost everyday. haiis, why! I no longer can text him like in the past when I see it. but 11.11 is still smth nice. sometime I must be madd, i will wonder & scare whether you chatting with other girls or you interested in other girls already.

脑子真的松掉了!!

PS: 如果时光倒流，我依旧会选择爱你，

至少我陪你走过一段艰难的日子，

但我没那福份享受艰难后的幸福.

It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.

2011-11-24T19:16:00.014+08:00

It takes a couple, a few seconds to say Hello,

but forever to say Goodbye D:

3rd day since, I think I will continue to count the day till the memories of you fade away. Im still missing you. especially when I heard people mention about you. More time is really all I need. Wonder really time can heal mah D: haiis.

This morning is so rush that I knock against the massage chair. blueblack on my leg for sure D: What a bad day to begin with.

WAD is such a mess, my coding suck especially for this module. shall get someone to coach me:X heeees. wonder who will be the honour one x.x 1st time i eat mac breakfast deluxe. I still don't like the sausage. well, I never like it even before i even try it. so I gave it away.

MIR presentation is manageable. at least quite confident. finally come to an end. next up is exams! time for revision! Lastly, meet up with rin and had soursally. It is nice. Yoghurt are best for my emo, plus the mandarin orange pearl topping. YUMMY!!

Uploaded a song in my blog yesterday. Rin say it is nice and share-d it on fb. is from the drama 犀利人妻. The drama is nice and sonia sui is pretty :D How I wish that im that pretty too.

PS: 似乎缺少了动力，失去了重心

CHIDAI

2011-11-23T18:40:00.005+08:00

CHIDAI<33

Today is just another boring day, without him. Im back to my old days. HAHA. Be a good girl and be home early. School is boring, flash 2hr lesson for the day, then home sweet home:D 2nd day since separated. Ohwell, not that emo already. But im still very tempted to sms him. Cannot helped it D: Few times that I picked up my phone, almost wanna sms him but I dunno what to say. ARGH! hopeless max! somehow something is missing:X Gosh, I need to get use to it.

OHYA, I caught this Doraemon on sat at marina, prize stage. He is cute, isn't? To be truthful, i wasn't the one that caught it, only the one paying the money. Rin is the one. She like a madd for this. so i just watched her. spent $18 before he finally drop out, and i name-d it chidai:P He is cutee. but his material isn't good. Rin say he might be fake!! Awwwww!! Even if he is fake, i will still like him! Haha, Rin say sweet die le. ohwell, chidai<33. Doraemon & MOMO have something in common. HAHA, BIG HEAD! Just like someone:X MUST STOP THINKING LE!

PS: 脑子松掉了

GOODBYE BABY D:

2011-11-22T20:10:00.003+08:00

GOODBYE BABY D:

REVIVE MY BLOG ALREADY.
Shall start everything all over again. Im back to square one. Im all alone again.
somehow i never predict today coming, so many past memories. They all turn-ed into history. there is still so much left un-done, but it can never be done anymore.
not anymore with the two of us together. I need to stay strong, I will and believe that I will. Maybe i should really make some changes in my life. Do something just for myself. I hope i wont miss you too much cause i been too dependent on you for the past 1yr 5mth. I hope I wont be tempted to sms you. I know I can't D: I sure will. but perhaps as time goes by, it will slowly reduce the.

Today school is normal. ended at 5pm. so freaking tired as usual. Never manage to meet JX. I know how she is feeling cause i felt the same too. Freaking feel like giving her a hugg when i saw her at fc6. STAY STRONG GIRL:D

Last project to go before revision of exam, soon over. holiday is here. here without you. holiday is never holiday. holiday and weekends is no longer what im looking forward to already.

PS: 害怕去拥有, 因为害怕拥有后的失去